Freed From Rage and Sorrow is a musical album and photography book in the making. Inspired by death and realization, this work documents a life long journey toward understanding and recovery, revealing the inner process reflected in the outer world. Through subconscious voices, sending coded messages, speaking in poetry and images, the self is lead to discovering what is real. And in so doing, builds a bridge back to wholeness.
Poems became songs and images became photographs. For over twenty years, I have created the sound and vision that is becoming this work. In darkness, not knowing why, always seeking, always trusting, pushing possibility to the limit, and finally over, facing the most terrifying, the most painful, because I must. I must be set free. And now, finally, I am beginning to step into this liberation. Letting go of the wish for it to be different. Relinquishing the fantasy that I have the power to change anything but myself.
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To a great degree, I am picking up where I left off two years ago. Just reminded of that yesterday. I had launched a Pledge Music campaign in spite of being pretty seriously disabled. It seemed like a reasonable thing to do. Run the campaign while I was recovering and then put out my solo album at long last. But it was not meant be. I had a bad feeling about Pledge from the start. The business model seemed unsustainable and I didn’t trust that I would get the funds handled properly, I was worried, that if the campaign was successful, I would end up holding the bag and I was not in any condition to just roll with more music industry bullshit. The line had been drawn out of absolute necessity. I had nothing left to give. It was time to let go.
I have decided to leave social media, all of it. I tried creating fresh profiles to see if that would do the trick, but it’s more than that. And it’s difficult to explain. I am sure you already understand. I understand why you stay as well. There is a lot of great contribution happening, and that is the issue. I am not finding the relationship equitable. I find it draining, as a creator of content. So, I am going to stop for a while. See how it goes. But I am not just going to log off. I am going to leave, permanently. If I return, it will begin from scratch. Not sure exactly when the pages and profiles will disappear, but it will be soon.
I will be focusing my energy on actual creation. Privately, in my studio, at my own pace and it may not be documented, not if I don’t feel like it. I will be making posts here on my blog. I will be contributing to my Patreon feed where subscribers will also be notified of and have first access to new releases before they come to my website.
Our friends at CrypticRock.com are premiering the new video “Messages By Dreams” by uber-legendary producer John Fryer’s Black Needle Noise. It’s a gorgeously textural cinematic video and song that editor Frank Malerba calls “a stunning visual piece” which features the velvety vocals of Attasalina.